Reflection on my Granny

As I sit here and think and take in the news I received this morning I cannot help but to reflect back on life. Reflect back on all the good and bad times I have had. All the times that God has done a miracle in my life, and all the times the enemy had me in his hand. Yesterday, I received news that my granny was in the hospital with kidney failure and she would more than likely, not make it until morning. She had a blood clot in her right leg, that gone unnoticed at the nursing home so long that gang green had begun to set in. She was several dehydrated, and was just not responsive at all. As my cousin is telling me the news that she isn’t doing well, she asked if I would go to the hospital with her and see Granny. So I went, and I am glad that I did because I got to spend a good 10-15 minutes by myself with her.

At first I just sat quietly just looking at how fragile she looked, at how skinny she was, and how wrinkly her skin was because she was so thin. Then I got up and I prayed over her, I would touch different parts of her body and pray that God would deliver her from her pain and make it go away, that if this was her time that he would take her so her pain would stop. I prayed over and over while touching all different parts of her body and I just felt a peace, the more that I prayed. I did have a few scary moments when her breathing would stop, just for a second, then would catch up again. After I was done praying, I stood there and told her about Lily. How Lily got to see Cinderella and go to Disney World. I told her about Halloween, and that Lily was a ladybug, but we called her Lazy bug because I pulled her around in a cart. I told her that Lily had started ballet, and really liked it. I showed her silly pictures of Lily, even though she could not open her eyes. I just sat there and talked to her like normal. A few times I would adjust her pillow, and she would hold her head up while I fixed the pillow. Then I slide her body over a little because she looked uncomfortable. I told her that we were going to church and that Lily LOVES her sunday school class. I told her that Lily loves learning about God, and that she was going to grow up in a Godly home. Most importantly I told her I loved her!

My granny is not a biological grandparent. She is my step-dads mom, but she has known me since I was small, a good 24 years now. Ever since I first met her she always treated me like a true blood grandchild. I was the first grandchild that she had, and when I was small I would go over to her house and spend the night. I remember her calling my mom and asking to watch me, and spend the night. I could always eat, drink, whatever I wanted. We would play with the dogs, or look through all her old year books from the 60’s thru 80’s, and pick out people who I knew. Then more cousins came around and we would always go to her house and hunt Easter eggs. During Thanksgiving she always made the dressing different that other grandparents but it was yummy. And never once, even with other blood grandchildren coming along did she make me feel less.

Then came a point in my life when my mom and step dad separated, I was about 18, and I did not see her as much. I did not go over there as much, and holidays got more complicated and sometimes I would not make it to her house. I could say, I wish I could have gotten to see her more during those years but I will not. What good is it to wish to change the past when you have the present. Eventually I got some sense knocked into me and I started to go see her more. Thank goodness!

Then came along Lily! Her first great grandchild. I am so thankful to God that Granny was able to spend time with Lily and watch her grow these past 3 years. I am thankful that Lily was able to see Granny and remembers her, you do have to say Granny with the dog Angel and she will go oh okay yeah. I am thankful that I got to go up to the hospital and have those last moments with her! Even though she was not responsive, I know in my heart that she heard me. I know in my heart that she heard and knew I was praying over her body for the pain to subside. I know that she knew I was there! I know my Granny is in a much better place now, she gets to see her Family and be in God’s wonderful Kingdom in Heaven!!

Love and Respect

This past Friday and Saturday, my church held the Love and Respect Conference with Dr. Eggerichs. I am super thankful that I was able to attend, thanks to my mom watching my little girl. It was a very eye-opening Conference, and I am sure it blessed many people who attended. It was an eye opener as to why a husband reacts the way he does, and why a wife reacts the way she does. Without Love she Reacts without Respect, and Without Respect he Reacts Without Love. It is a viscous cycle that if it is not put under control can end a marriage. Some college, can’t remember the name of it, did a study and came to the conclusion to have a successful marriage you need two things; LOVE AND RESPECT! It is clearly in the bible.

 Ephesians 5:25 Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ also loved the church and gave Himself up for her

Ephesians 5:33 Nevertheless, each individual among you also is to love his own wife even as himself, and the wife must see to it that she [r]respects her husband

I am truly blessed to have the husband I have, for numerous reasons but some of the ones I love are; Neither of us like to fight, and will talk through things rather than “fight. My husband is a guy who tries to see it from both perspectives, in turn he can see where I am coming from rather than getting mad. He is a communicator, he will sit and talk about feelings, what is bothering him, and in all actuality I am the one that does not like to talk about my feelings. I do not like to talk face to face about personal issues that are bothering me, I would rather bottle it up inside and ignore it, or write it all down on a piece of paper and let someone read it. So I am super blessed with a man who will work through all those emotions with me and doesn’t get mad when I say something wrong, because he understand how I think.

Back to the conference, Dr. Eggerichs pointed out that God has made up Man and Woman and we feel, see, react to things differently. A woman is naturally loving, gentle, nurturer, kind, will say I’m sorry for tripping over the dog. It is in our makeup that we put xoxoxox ❤ love you all over things! That is what makes up the loving women we are. God created men to want respect, to be man of honor, to naturally know how to respect another guy and naturally will die for his girlfriend or wife. Think about that, God designed your husband, boyfriend, son, to DIE for a women! Think about the Aurora, Colorado shooting and those 4 boyfriends who took the bullet for their girlfriends. That is just how God made them, they are Men of Honor!

Us woman, naturally want to feel loved, and we want our boyfriends or husbands to Love us, but they cannot Love us how we want UNLESS we show them RESPECT! See it is a big cycle. Try telling your husband, Honey I respect you, and walk away. See what happens, he, more than likely, will come walking after you going hey hey now how, intrigued. Make sure you have a couple of things to tell him as to why you respect him, like going to work, or being a good father or husband, etc. The more we can show respect to our Husbands, and try to show respect and think to ourselves, is what I am about to say Respectful or not, the more LOVE he will show you. It is a big circle!!!! I want my daughter to see her mom showing her dad respect and her dad showing her mom love. I want to have a healthy marriage that puts GOD FIRST, a marriage where Lily can look back and go that is the type of marriage I want to have.

So, that is what I learned at the Love and Respect Conference and I SO cannot wait to read the two books my Husband bought for me :). I would truly recommend any person to read his book Love an Respect, or attend a marriage conference if you can. Even if you do not have any marital problems it will help you to avoid them in the future.