Reflection on my Granny

As I sit here and think and take in the news I received this morning I cannot help but to reflect back on life. Reflect back on all the good and bad times I have had. All the times that God has done a miracle in my life, and all the times the enemy had me in his hand. Yesterday, I received news that my granny was in the hospital with kidney failure and she would more than likely, not make it until morning. She had a blood clot in her right leg, that gone unnoticed at the nursing home so long that gang green had begun to set in. She was several dehydrated, and was just not responsive at all. As my cousin is telling me the news that she isn’t doing well, she asked if I would go to the hospital with her and see Granny. So I went, and I am glad that I did because I got to spend a good 10-15 minutes by myself with her.

At first I just sat quietly just looking at how fragile she looked, at how skinny she was, and how wrinkly her skin was because she was so thin. Then I got up and I prayed over her, I would touch different parts of her body and pray that God would deliver her from her pain and make it go away, that if this was her time that he would take her so her pain would stop. I prayed over and over while touching all different parts of her body and I just felt a peace, the more that I prayed. I did have a few scary moments when her breathing would stop, just for a second, then would catch up again. After I was done praying, I stood there and told her about Lily. How Lily got to see Cinderella and go to Disney World. I told her about Halloween, and that Lily was a ladybug, but we called her Lazy bug because I pulled her around in a cart. I told her that Lily had started ballet, and really liked it. I showed her silly pictures of Lily, even though she could not open her eyes. I just sat there and talked to her like normal. A few times I would adjust her pillow, and she would hold her head up while I fixed the pillow. Then I slide her body over a little because she looked uncomfortable. I told her that we were going to church and that Lily LOVES her sunday school class. I told her that Lily loves learning about God, and that she was going to grow up in a Godly home. Most importantly I told her I loved her!

My granny is not a biological grandparent. She is my step-dads mom, but she has known me since I was small, a good 24 years now. Ever since I first met her she always treated me like a true blood grandchild. I was the first grandchild that she had, and when I was small I would go over to her house and spend the night. I remember her calling my mom and asking to watch me, and spend the night. I could always eat, drink, whatever I wanted. We would play with the dogs, or look through all her old year books from the 60’s thru 80’s, and pick out people who I knew. Then more cousins came around and we would always go to her house and hunt Easter eggs. During Thanksgiving she always made the dressing different that other grandparents but it was yummy. And never once, even with other blood grandchildren coming along did she make me feel less.

Then came a point in my life when my mom and step dad separated, I was about 18, and I did not see her as much. I did not go over there as much, and holidays got more complicated and sometimes I would not make it to her house. I could say, I wish I could have gotten to see her more during those years but I will not. What good is it to wish to change the past when you have the present. Eventually I got some sense knocked into me and I started to go see her more. Thank goodness!

Then came along Lily! Her first great grandchild. I am so thankful to God that Granny was able to spend time with Lily and watch her grow these past 3 years. I am thankful that Lily was able to see Granny and remembers her, you do have to say Granny with the dog Angel and she will go oh okay yeah. I am thankful that I got to go up to the hospital and have those last moments with her! Even though she was not responsive, I know in my heart that she heard me. I know in my heart that she heard and knew I was praying over her body for the pain to subside. I know that she knew I was there! I know my Granny is in a much better place now, she gets to see her Family and be in God’s wonderful Kingdom in Heaven!!


Visit with my Fabulous Uncle and Aunt!

Over the weekend my family went to go visit my uncle and aunt. It has been a while since i’ve seen them so I was really looking forward to this quick trip. It also was the first time my uncle and aunt has spent any length of time with my daughter, and I FINALLY got to meet my new little cousin(Raylynn).

Lily, my daughter, had so much fun playing, and swimming. By the time she got comfortable she was calling my uncle, papa, which is what Raylynn calls him. When we went to dinner, Lily even had to ride in the truck with papa, and Raylynn. But one of my favorite things about Saturday was my talk with my Uncle Donny.

My uncle Donny is a wonderful man of God! I remember plenty of times when I would ask my mom something about the bible and she would say something Donny told her. With me just figuring out how to walk a Godly lifestyle and look to him with my everything; I knew I NEEDED to talk to him, God Wanted me to talk to him.

While we were at his house the perfect moment came along when everyone was leaving the room but my Uncle so I seized the opportunity and sat down next to him to talk. I really wish I could of had a tape recorder so I could playback everything that was said. But I do want to talk about a few key points that I remember.

First is about tithing. He mentioned that you should tithe whatever it is you can tithe. The bible says 10% but at times that is not possible, so do what you can and stick to it. God loves a person who has a giving heart and will give back to you 30, 60, 100 fold. Now this is something that I do believe in and I do tithe, but I do not tithe as much as I would like. I have had a feeling lately that we need to tithe a little more, and I believe this is God’s was of reaffirming that feeling!!

Second is you need to seek God with your WHOLE heart!!! Another thing that I am learning to do and trying to do but God is saying Tiffany you need to try harder!!! He said it is a rewarding path to follow God’s footsteps. The more you seek Him with your whole heart, the more the enemy isn’t going to like it. Quick story, while my uncle was at a bible study the teacher told him that the enemy knows his name so be careful (basically). My uncle was honored because in the bible it says, two men were trying to drive our a demon and the demon said “I know Paul’s name and I know Jesus name, but I do not know your name.” Wow! How powerful is it that the enemy knows my Uncles name!

The last point I will talk about is family. He told me that I was doing a great job with Lily, and to keep going to church. The more that i seek God and the more that I run after Him with my whole heart, the more that Lily will also be blessed. Also, the more Godly values that I instill in Lily, the more likely she will not sway from the path. “Train a child in the way he should go, and when he is old he will not turn from it” Proverbs 22:6, NIV. There is always one in a family who will stand up again the enemy and be the strong one and he said that is me and he’s proud of me!

My talk with my Uncle Donny meant so much to me, and I know that it all came from God and it was Exactly what I needed to hear.